Episode 54: Sitex Day 3.

As expected, today turned out to be such a stressful and tiring day for me. I found myself going in and out of the store non stop. I had no time to eat! The crowd was quite big today and they bought quite a lot of stuff from both stores.

Some people at work were giving me the "treatment" today which I don't really quite understand. If you have something to say then just say it.

What goes around, comes around. When its you at the receiving end of it, you don't like it. Now you know how it feels...

As for the rest of my evening, well... I'd rather not talk about it.

Last day of Sitex tomorrow. I'm hoping that it will not turn out bad. Its all a bit too much for me really...

Soundtrax

I've been listening to this song a lot lately... I think I like it.... Maybe because of its the words and the meaning of the song. Just thought I'd share it with you. Music video included below. Enjoy...

Superhuman - Chris Brown featuring Keri Hilson

[Verse 1 - Chris Brown]
Weak I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat?
On my knees

[Verse 2 - Keri Hilson]
Well that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible, I see
Through the me, I used to be

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

[Verse 3 - Chris Brown]
Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
I can see tomorrow

[Verse 4 - Keri Hilson]
Well every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelieveable to see how love could set me free

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

[Bridge]
It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going gone away
My only weakness is you
My only reason is you
Every minute with you I feel like I can do
Anything
Going going I'm gone away
In love

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman
Superhuman

Episode 53: Sitex Day 2.

Yesterday, purposely came to work late. And as usual, The Manager was looking up and down for me. I wish sometimes she would just leave me alone...

Day 2 of Sitex was okay. It seems that the crowd keeps getting bigger and bigger. I wish I could go there instead of working. There's so much for me to buy... I had to work extra hours again which I found ridiculous. At the end of the day, my right eye was all red. But I think I should be okay. No use complaining about it because I'm working again today...

Some people were acting all bitchy yesterday. Seriously, I don't have time for this people! If there's something I don't like, it is people who disturb me when I'm busy with something. They want my attention, but frankly I don't want it! I just gave them the face and walked off or reply to them with short answers. Get the hints people...

I just don't feel like going to work anymore... The only thing inside my mind right now is about quitting this job. Its just hard to motivate myself to come to work. For what? Because of who? I don't know... I need advice...

Episode 52: Sitex Day 1.

Today was the first day of Sitex at Singapore Expo. And I'm glad to say that I survived. Even though it was my second time going through the event, I must admit there were times when I felt like taking my bag and leaving the place. Just 3 more days to go...

The girls from the Simei store who came by to assist us looks much tougher when compared to the girls from my store. I was told that over there, the girls are the ones doing the flowthru. Amazing... To prove their point, one of them showed me their muscles in their arms. DASHYAT!!!

Just now, everyone around me was telling me just how tired they were. EVERYONE. Hey, I'm tired too! Forgive me if I'm being insensitive here, but you're making it sound like you're the ONLY one who is tired...

Finally, someone just got a brand new phone! No need to say who lah... Its so nice and shiny... Ands its very slim too... But I think it might fall apart soon!

I was just joking!! ;-)

Episode 51: The one where Juraimi goes window shopping.

I don't know why...
But all of a sudden, I'm feeling so useless...
Got to snap out of it!

Shakinah has quit already... How many of you saw that coming? Anyway, don't let this tudung-wearing girl fool you... She's all gangsta I tell you! On her last day, she argued with some of her customers. I was very surprised. I'm gonna miss her... She was a lot of fun to work with!

Yesterday after work, I accompanied Hidayah to Tampines. She said she wanted to buy something. Since I had time to burn, I decided to tag along. It was weird at first, its been awhile since since I last did this. Girls just love going from shop to shop and not buying anything... How come? And when they do buy something, they tend to overspend! Pity their boyfriends... Despite being punched in the arm a couple of times for commenting, overall I found it to be a fun trip. I'm still smelling nice from all the perfume she sprayed on me!

Kala made me laugh today. Laugh really hard. So hard that I cried... Cried tears of joy... She can be so funny sometimes!

My original intentions were to avoid certain people at work because they were starting to get on my nerves. I needed to create space between me and them... But the further I went, the closer they got to me. It was useless! I just can't ignore them as if they never existed... This people matter to me...

Episode 50: What!? Reservist today?

Today I got the shock of my life when I woke up... I was mobilized! Which means I have reservist training... Its been a while since my last training and my military items were nowhere to be found! Shit!! Luckily my dad volunteered to send me to my camp. I'm very grateful for that! Anyway, have you seen me in uniform? I look damn smart in one...

4 hours later and it was finally over. Very glad that I could go back already. Unfortunately, it rained very heavily while I was waiting for my taxi. I think I'm sick... Talking about taxi rides, I had to pay $27 for the ride home! I cannot believe it!! Bloody hell, that Uncle tricked me...

By the time I reached home, I was damn tired already... But I was not done yet. Took a quick shower and left home again for work. Did my best to help out even though I was tired and getting sick. Saw Kala and she told me that the guys were not happy that I didn't show up for work. So what?! Its not like they care about me... Screw them!

Zaky dropped by the store and we talked for a bit. He had to leave earlier because he was meeting his friends later. He said he was going fishing. More like fishing for girls if you ask me...

Hahaa... ;-)

Episode 49: Ego trip.

Its funny how things can change from good to bad in an instant... Yesterday was a good day for me. Well, sort of... It was fun at least. Today, was the complete opposite of yesterday. Everything that could go wrong did. What a day...

The manager told me I had to pay $50 today. All by myself... I couldn't believe it... I still don't believe it... Just my luck! What am I supposed to do? She purposely put me to work with the new staff all this week. Seriously... It wasn't my fault!! Sigh...

As punishment for covering for my "sick friends" at work last week, I got my originally scheduled 2 off days taken away by the manager. Thanks a lot guys... Can anyone please explain to me why it is always like that? Anyone? Whatever...

All this week the manager got all bossy over a proposed visit by a big shot. Do this, do that... Oh yeah, is he here yet? What the hell! Complete waste of my time...

Its really weird to have these many girls at work. Who's idea is this? Sigh... Its so troublesome. I have to be careful with what I say and do... They want to be "manja" and want attention from me. Its annoying! But Helmi doesn't face this problem. Got to ask him whats his secret...

Does kissing up to the manager really helps you get what you want? Maybe I should try it too...

Manager's kid. Very annoying. Nuff said!

I have to try resigning the next couple of days. I really, really cannot take it anymore! What was I thinking when I asked for everyone opinion on whether I should quit or not... Of course they're gonna say no. They just want to take advantage of me... Ask me to help do their work for them, cover for them when they get "sick", etc... Yeah, I already know...

When ever you feel like your big ego needs boosting, don't come and look for me. I am done with that. I'm tired of telling you things you want to hear just to feed that huge ego yours... I mean why should I? What about me? When was the last time anyone ever done anything for me?

I wish Faris was still around... At least he would hear me out. I miss the times when we would go back from work together and talked about a lot of stuff while on the bus.

Maybe what I need is really someone to talk to...

Episode 48: What I need to do.

Have a look at what I found...

Its the resignation form for me to leave that place once and for all!

So I guess all I have to do is just fill this up and shove it up the manager's face.

Seems simple enough...

I have to do this...

Cause this is what I want....

Right?

Hm mm....

Episode 47: Thinking things over.

Work has been very stressful for me this week. I just don't want to talk about it. Just thinking about what I've been through this week so far makes my blood boil. Things are definitely not okay. I find the whole situation too complicated to understand. So I just keep it all to myself. Telling people what I really think of them is not a good idea... I can be brutally honest but I don't want to hurt other peoples feelings. But then again, how about my feelings? Don't they matter too?

I keep reminding myself that everything will be fine even though I know its not. Its just one of the reasons I managed to stay this long. Its an achievement that I'm not proud of having. So what if I'm the longest serving staff there?

Despite of all this, there is a bright spot at the end. In a crowd full of posers, followers, ass kissers and attention seekers there are a select few whom I can say I can trust. Just talking to them or spending time with them helps take my mind off things. Thank god for these people...

Juraimi's Quote of the day

Here's today's quote:

Juraimi: "Do you need a straw sir?"

Male Customer: "No thanks. Girls need to use straws. I'm a guy."

Episode 46: The one about cockroaches.

Nowadays, I find myself working with some new staff. I have to teach them the ways of the sales assistant. Hahaaa... Am I such a good teacher? Is that why the manager always picks me to tutor them? I doubt it. I think nobody gets what the manager is trying to teach them. She talks way to fast! Hahaaa... I guess its up to me then to guide them.

Talking about new staff, right now I'm tutoring Hidayah. Yes, another girl... Don't be jealous now! This is a strictly professional relationship... So don't start any rumors! Hahaaa... So far so good. Even though its still early days for her, I have a good feeling about this girl.

If you've worked with me before,you'll know that I'll praise you if you understood whatever that I taught you. Then I'll say something like,"Wah... Dah pandai seh! Now I can quit already..." Sound familiar? The response I hear to that is always the same. "Jangan ah... Aku masih baru seh... Aku takde kawan kat sini!" Yeah right... That's what they always say at first. 1 month later, that same person I taught becomes arrogant & starts disrespecting me... That's gratitude for you.

Helmi hates cockroaches! He screams like a little girl when he sees one. Hahaaa... I had to kill one for him just now. Sheesh!

Diana looks sick. I think she is sick! She keeps coughing & vomiting... I don't know what she's trying to do but whatever it is, its taking its toll on her body! She can be so stubborn sometimes! I'm really worried about her...

Had to do more overtime today because someone called in sick. Hooray!!! Manager immediately goes & looks for me to cover this person. Who else? Never even ask me if whether I can or cannot! That just leaves me as the ONLY PERSON WHO HAS NOT GOTTEN AN OFF DAY YET THIS WEEK!!! SO FUCKING UNFAIR KAN... WHAT A BITCH!!! Sigh... I have a bad feeling that today won't be the only day I'll be doing overtime for this week. Aarrgh!!!

Today's word of the day: " Kaki Ponteng"

Pretty self explanatory.

Episode 45: The one about the store keys.

Yes, it really does... And just when I least expect it... Kind of...

Here's the thing, I asked Helmi first. He said he didn't have them. Then I asked Dianah the same question before I went back. She said yes. Did she even hear what I said? Whatever... I went home anyway.

Miscommunication can be a bitch sometimes...

So in the end, I had to return to the store to lock up. Because I had the keys and they don't. I don't blame anybody for what happened other than myself. Its not their fault.

Just mine.

Its just so damn pointless to argue about it. I'm starting lose faith with the people around me. So next time you see me just leave me alone. If anything bad happens, it'll be my fault and not yours. Save the excuses for someone who actually believes them.

I give up...

On a brighter note, Faris came for a visit. I don't know but to me he seems a different person now. We talked for a bit before he had to leave. Thanks for the kind words of encouragement dude. I really appreciate that. Faris showed me his brand new Ipod Touch...

Ooh... I like! I want one too!

Episode 44: The one where I need help.

Work has been pretty "whatever" lately.
I really hate it.
Really- really hate it.
I don't know...
But this past few days I've been getting frustrated pretty easily.
Even the smallest thing would tick me off.
I'm really trying my best but it just doesn't seem to be enough for them.
Maybe I'm just trying too hard?

Am I?
Or is it the people around me who are just not doing enough?
Whatever it is, I just can't take it anymore!
Here I am, busting my ass and I see people just standing around doing nothing...
NOTHING...
And whats worse than that?
The complaining...
Sorry if I'm being insensitive here, but you are still getting paid right?
I really understand the situation right now stinks, but you won't get any sympathy from me by just complaining like some spoilt brat!

Just like today, I was expecting a little help.
But in the end, I ended up doing everything by myself.
That's so typical...
I CAN'T DO THIS BY MYSELF!!! I NEED YOUR HELP!!!
Sigh...
I'm so tired...
Don't know how long I can keep this up...
The longer I stay, the more impatient I get...

Oh...
Did I mention that there won't be any off days for me this week?
That's the thanks I get for helping out...
And you're welcome.

Episode 43: The one where Faris quits.

I was supposed to post this a few days back but I just couldn't find the right words. What to do? It was all of a sudden... This is what happened.......

I came to work in the morning as normal. Manager comes up to me and informs me about some changes to the work schedule. She says Faris just quit.

WHAT?!

Manager goes on to tell me what really happened. I still couldn't believe it...... I text Faris to confirm and he said it was true.

No frickin' way!

I've got to be honest here, I still haven't accepted the fact that he quit. I was surprised at first, then I felt angry and then I felt disappointed. I knew he was going to quit but not now or at least not before me.... I was so bummed out that day. One of the "Originals" has left. So that just leaves me and Diana along with the rest. And I know Diana hates me... Sigh.......

And then there was one.

But I still respect his decision. Sometimes you just have to do what you've got to do. Even though it might be the most difficult. I just wish him all the best in his future endeavours. Who knows? Our paths might cross again in the future. I guess the only thing for me to do is to .......

Dude, I still can't believe you left me all alone at that place!

See you around.

Episode 42: The one with moody people.

Things have been pretty dull lately.
People around me are acting all weird and work is boring.
I hate days like this...

The mood in the store have changed. But I don't know if its good or not. Some new people have come in but my workload is still the same. I guess I cannot complain... They are still new and I have to teach them.

But sometimes I think to myself,"WHY ME!!!!!"

Have you met the new girl? I call her Mas. Finally, I have someone the same age as me to talk to! She seems like a nice person and her work is quite okay. She's my new hope right now.

Hopefully, she stays there long enough for me to quit...

I don't get why you're moody all of a sudden... Is something troubling you? Its so obvious you know... If you do have a problem go talk to somebody. Or don't bring it to work okay?

Just like when you're lying, you can't hide it very well. I can tell.

Faris will be returning this week. I hope he'll be feeling much better now. I must admit that it wasn"t easy to do this without him. I wonder if he's changed after what he went through.


Thats all for now...

"Kawan makan Kawan."