Episode 31: Still Living In Your Fantasy World?

Just want to say that this is just my honest opinion and nothing else. Whether you take it seriously or not, is up to you.

I believe that God made us all equal. We are all the same. We're not perfect and each of us have our own flaws. No one person is better than the other. The only thing that maybe sets any 2 people apart is what they achieve in this lifetime. For some, success comes instantly. For the rest its a long & winding road. But when you finally make it, please remain humble. Never forget the people who helped you reached your dreams.

Being in a relationship isn't easy. So is breaking up. But the one thing that links these two together is HONESTY. I know its hard but it will really help you in these situations. In a relationship, when you're honest with each other, you trust each other more. Trusting one another is the most important thing while being in a relationship. In the case of a break up, telling the other half how you really feel about the relationship might save you from always giving in to each others demands.

Please use that brain & think for yourself. Just because the person is of higher ranking than you doesn't mean he has to be right. Don't just follow blindly. They're human too you know so they also can be wrong.

Life is not fair. Never been & never will be. So please stop your complaining already! I found out from a young age that life wasn't fair. Just ignore the negatives and take in the positives! It will be better I promise you.

Please grow up. You are not a kid anymore so please, stop acting like one. Just how long do you plan to keep this up? Change the way you see things. See the bigger picture and not just whats in front of you. Don't get it? Need an example? Take your workplace for example. Are you one of the best over there? Do people look up to you? If your answer is no, then how do you expect to be successful somewhere else when you are still a nobody at your current workplace. You should use your current workplace as a stepping stone to bigger things. Its not about how much you want to earn but how much experience you've acquired.

Noticed how people have been acting strange around you? Its not them, its you...

To be continued...

Episode 30: Hard Work And Its Rewards.

After a couple of dark days, I'm glad to say that I'm back to my normal, happy self!

Not too long ago someone told me good things happen to good people. Is this what they meant? I still can't believe it. I'm looking at my payslip again just to make sure it right!

But was it worth it? I'm not sure...

All those weeks working non-stop with no off-days. Working double shifts a couple of times. Covering for people for whatever reasons. It was pretty tiring for me. Would I do it all over again?

What?! Are you crazy?!

Episode 29: Not Again....

Sometimes, I just wish I have something positive to talk about...

Guess what?
I was left all alone AGAIN...
But then again, I was expecting it...
Oh yeah, don't bother explaining yourself...
I'm not interested.
You see, during that time all by myself, it got me thinking...
Whats all this about again?
Honestly, I don't remember....

Plus, the Manager called.
She gave me an earful over the phone.
She complained that I closed the shop early last night.
I tried to explain that the timing was slow by 20 minutes.
I don't think she believed me.
I can't believe she tried to blame me ONLY...
Oh... I forgot! The other one working with me that night is one of her "favourites" as well...

On a brighter note, today's my brothers' birthday!
Sucks big time that I was working on his birthday.
I promise I'll make it up to him on my off day...
So sorry I missed your birthday bro...

Smell you later...

Episode 28: What Is This Feeling Taking Over Me?

I need to get out of there now!

I am generally quiet and have control over my emotions.
It is difficult to predict what will upset me, so when I do lose my cool, people don't know how to react.
Anyone trying to pacify me will be the first one to get a verbal bashing.
I generally get upset when people accuse me of doing something wrong.
I hate being reminded about mistakes I've made in the past.
I have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

Recently I've been having this feelings of being used and manipulated, and made a sucker of.
I've tried to ignore this fact for so long even though it is so clear for me to see.
There are so many incidents that I can think of.

Don't these people realize what they're doing to me?
No more talking!
My actions will speak louder than words...

I realize that my magnetism attracts negative as well as positive influences of the people around me.
I know what I have to do.
I need to choose my friends, not let them choose me.

I am feeling depressed with my life.
Disgusted and dissatisfied.
My friends around me are little comfort.
I'm starting to feel that my life lacks meaning.
I need to take control of my life.
Realize whats really important to me.
Leave out all the rest.
Hopefully, I will come out of this rut a better man, a better friend & a better human being.

If you didn't know, Now you know!

Episode 27: A Man On A Mission

Sometimes if you want something, you have to go get it yourself!

Today, I decided to come to work a bit early.
I wanted to do something that I should have done a long time ago.
I decided to confront my manager.
Face to face.
Oh yeah...
I needed to get a few things of my chest.
And this was the perfect time to do it.

So I asked her why I had to work 11 days to get my only off day.
She said I already got an off day.
Wrong answer!
I reminded her that was for me covering for Kala.
My off day this week was burned when I had to come to work again.
She then told me to be patient and that I would be earning more for hari raya.
Once again, not the answer I want to hear.
I told her directly that I'm not here for the money.
I don't care about that.
Her facial expression changed.
When she tried to explain again, I turned my back to her.
I've heard enough.

Did she get it?
I don't know.
But I think I proved to her that I'm not like the others whom she can manipulate.
I must say that doing that felt damn good.
That set my mood for the rest of the day.
I wasn't going to take any crap from anyone, friend or stranger.

I hate explaining stuff to people...

Somebody asked me this question; "Why are you so hardworking?".
My answer to that is simple.
Its not that I'm hardworking, but its because I'm just doing more while you are just standing around.
Its my job.
They pay me to do it so I try to do the best job that I can.
It surprises me that they still don't get it.
Faris thinks that they're too pampered.
I'm starting to believe that he's right.
Coming to work late, complaining, not knowing how to do things and not even bothering to ask how to do it.
Am I being over-critical here?

If You Didn't Know, Now You Know...
The Notorious JU-RAI-MI

Episode 26: Bored In Bedok

I can't sleep.
I'm tired but when I lay on my bed, I can't seem to close my eyes.
I wonder why?
Oh well... Might as well update my blog since I'm awake.

My work life is still the same.
Despite our differences about certain things, she still looks for me to solve her staff problems. This is nothing new to me.
But working 16 hours during the fasting month really takes its toll on you.
Physically and mentally.
Some friends of mine have been very critical of me for helping out while others have been supportive.
Personally, I respect each one of your opinions but I will continue to help out that bitch whenever I can.
Hopefully, my sacrifices won't go to waste.
Yeah, you'll probably hear me bitch about it but unlike the rest, I try to finish what I started.

Recently, I've found myself working all by myself at the store.
I don't have a problem with that but it does limit what I can do.
As long as the manager doesn't piss me off unfairly, I'm good.
She plans out the schedule in such a way even I don't understand.
Shes so bad, she makes all the bad managers look good.
Part of the problem is this girl.
This girl is working from morning but the manager still puts her to work in the evening.
She won't come.
She'll be too tired.
She wants to quit!
I don't know how long this will carry on but the situation is starting to burden me.
And that's not cool.

Janna dropped by yesterday.
But she never even said hi.
Instead, I got to meet her friend instead.
Whats up with that?
Weird...

On a positive note, I got to work with Faris this few days.
Its always fun working with him.
I think hes the only one who understands me best.
Maybe because we've worked there the longest.
Yesterday, he dropped by my neighborhood and said that the people in my neighborhood were more friendly than his.
I was like, "What?!"
Only he can come out with something as random as that.
He was like a tourist visiting Bedok for the first time.

On a final note, if you're set on something and you believe in it, you should put your mind, body and soul to get it.
Don't quit!
If you do, then you're a joke.
No one will ever take whatever you say or do seriously.
Especially me.
Think about it.

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Jur@imi
"Due to the current situation, I've decided to change my targets & goals.
I'll be around for Hari Raya but after that I may have to say goodbye."

Sound Trax

I don't want to be the one to blame

You like fun and games

Keep playing em

I'm just saying

Think back then

We was like one and the same

On the right track

But I was on the wrong train

Just like that

Now you've got a face to pain

And the devil's got a fresh new place to play

In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain

Every damn day is the same shade of grey

Hey

I used have a little bit of a plan

Used to Have a concept of where I stand

But that concept slipped right out of my hands

Now I don't really even know who I am

Yo, what do I have to say

Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free

What ever happens to you, we'll see

But it's not gonna happen with me

Back then, I thought you were just like me

Somebody who could see all the pain I see

But you proved to me unintentionally

That you would self-destruct eventually

Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt

But it's not gonna work

Cause it's really much worse than I thought

I wished you were something that you were not

And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turned your back

And walked away in shame

All you got is a memory of pain

Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground

I hear your voice in my head when no one else is around

What do I have to say

Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free

What ever happens to you, we'll see

But it's not gonna happen with me

I guess

That this is where we've come to

If you don't want to

Then you don't have to believe me

But I won't be there when you go down

Just so you know now

You're on your own now believe me

The song is Believe Me by Fort Minor. I love this song! The words are so meaningful and I can totally relate to it. Do you have a favourite song? Share it!

JuR@imI

Episode 25: An Eventful Day

Hallo.... How are you? Its been a while hasn't it? Make yourself a cup of warm Milo or coffee and take a seat... The show is about to begin!

Isn't it wonderful what a good nights sleep can do for you? I feel so refreshed, I decided to update this thing! Lots of stuff happened recently but I'll start with the sacking of Aishah. I know she isn't easy to work with from what I heard from the guys but I guess she had it coming to her. Personally, I think she has an attitude problem. She was good at certain things, but not everything. She didn't actually quit, she got fired through SMS. Truly pathetic if you ask me.

Anyone remembered about the new girl? The one I'm supposed to teach? Guess what? This week will be her last week at work! Whats up with that?! Oh well....... At least she still remembered what I taught her. Haiz......

Helmi and Dianah lost money last week. The amount was quite high. OUCH! The manager did everything from checking the safe to watching the CCTV and still she couldn't find it. I still don't know how 2 people can lose the amount of money they lost. Its just not possible! Maybe they....... Nah! They wouldn't dare. Or would they? Hmmm.......

Talking about Dianah, she tried to quit last week. Unfortunately after a heart to heart talk with the manager, she didn't get what she wanted. Instead, she was told that she would be working the whole of next week! That must have sucked big time! I understand her situation, its damn tiring working 2 jobs at once. Too bad the manager doesn't think so.....

I did something random today. I picked my hand phone went through my messages folder. I was pleasantly surprised that I kept over 300 messages in my phone. I decided to read each one of them and some of them made me remember about certain incidents in my life. Others made me realise that there are some people who trust me enough for them to tell me about their problems and ask me for my advice. For me, helping the people I care about comes naturally and if I can help I will certainly be there. But, trust me when I say this, I won't be there for you all the time. Like you, I too have my own problems to take care of. If you can accept this fact, then we're cool.

I have no social life........ Help me!!! I miss my friends so much. We don't get to talk much nowadays with me busy with work all the time. So sorry guys..... I'll reply your SMSes if I can or try to get me on MSN... This sucks!!!

As Hari Raya approaches, the situation is getting from bad to worse. I'm getting the sense of deja vu all over again. Wait, haven't I been through this before? The manager and people around me might be new but the problems are still the same....... I'm so sick and tired of it!!!

Be Happy Or At Least Try To Look Like You Are,
JuRaimi

Hey wassup....

Looking for an update? Sorry, but there isn't one. At least for now. But there is one coming soon.... Just be patient. So, stay tuned for the next episode!

Cheers,

JuRaimi
"Breaking fast at work really sucks! Every things so damn expensive. Haiz..."

First off, let me say "Thank you" to the people who dropped by the store last week. It was nice to see all of you guys again. It made me remember about the good times we used to have when you guys were still around. I miss those days.........

Maybe, this week someone else I know might turn up.

Something has been bothering me this few days. I have been accused of taking advantage of other people. Is this true?! I don't think I've done such a thing to anyone before. But if anyone feels differently, please let me know.........

I don't believe it. Just what the hell is happening?

Juraimi
"All this talk about me has got to stop!"