Episode 59: What Is He To You?

Questions...

Do you go out with the guy? Yes.
Do you spend time with the guy? Yes.
Does he send you to work? Yes.
Does he sends you home from work? Yes.
Does he spend his money on you? Yes.
Is he your boyfriend? No.

Then, what is he to you? Are you just using him for your own selfish needs? Because that is what it looks like to me. Trust me, no guy would go to such lengths if he didn't like the girl. I guess he doesn't know does he? He's gonna find out the hard way is it? Oh well, I guess we can't blame the guy. Love is blind after all...

Girls often blame guys for two-timing them, which is fair enough but how about them? They're no angels either! These girls, use their charm and fool the guy in thinking that they like him. It doesn't matter who you are, its just cruel to mess around with one's feelings! I hate this type of girls...

Please don't take this the wrong way. This is just my opinion, that's all. I'm not judging you, but I've already figured you out. I'm not telling you how to live your life, you can do that on your own. I'm just concerned for you that's all. Its up to you whether to believe me or not...

Episode 58: I Was Bored...

This is what you get when you leave me all alone at the store... A picture of Sonia, myself, Helmi & Kala... Haiz, last Sunday was so boring for me! The boss will kill me if he finds out that I was drawing instead of doing work. Hahaa... :-)

The Random Post

Somewhere Between All Our Laughs,

Long Talks,

Stupid Little Fights And All Our Jokes,

I Fell In Love.

Episode 57: Fathers Day.

I've been so busy with work lately that I totally forgot that it was Fathers Day... Haiz, whats wrong with me? I have been so forgetful lately.

Anyway, just wanna wish a "Happy Fathers Day" to all the Dads out there including my own.

Episode 56: Helmi's Last Day Of Work.

Yesterday was Helmi's last day of work. He's going to take a break before going for national service. Initially, I wanted to saboh the guy but in the end it didn't happen. I couldn't do it lah... He's too nice seh... So me and Sonia decide to accompany him at work for a while. He wouldn't admit it but he really did look sad that day! Haiz... Cheer up lah dude! We will miss you too okay... Take care of yourself out there and thanks for the memories. I have a good feeling we'll be seeing you again...

Episode 55: I Hate Love.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

But some people just don't care if they hurt each other's feelings...
They just want their "revenge" and "get even".

Episode 54: Ini lagi?

"Juraimi merajuk dengan aku lagi..."

Hai... Dah terjadi lagi... Apasal ni? Ini dah kali ke berapa dah aku dengar ayat ni. Dah naik bosan pun aku mendengarnya... Apa yang aku buat pulak sekarang? Seriously, kadang-kadang aku tak faham..

Sudah lah... Kau buat aje lah apa-apa yang kau nak buat. Aku dah tak kisah. Asalkan kau bahagia sudah. That is what you want right? Fun & excitement. Don't worry, I won't trouble you anymore.

Berdiam diri lah untuk seberapa lama kau nak, tunjuk lah muka masam kau kat aku bila kau nampak aku. Its okay. Aku dah biasa pun. Bukan kali pertama ia terjadi. Don't you worry about me. Aku sedar siapa aku sebenarnya...

I'm just one of those people you make use of to get what you want.

Episode 53: The Random Post

In the beginning, it was all about studying. Getting good grades was the only thing that mattered to me. That made me happy enough.

Then in the middle, it was all about work. I'll just work and work until my body would hurt all over. I don't care as long as I got the job done.

Now, I can't help but think of getting attached to that very special someone. The one who needs me the most and understands me.

I think its about time I thought about myself a little bit more...

Episode 52: Deep Feelings

It breaks my heart to see the one I love

Happy with someone else

But its more painful to know that the one I love

Is unhappy with me.

Episode 51: The New Girl

I am so tired this week... I need a break from work! Work is becoming so routine for me...

Come to work, go to storeroom, take out stocks, flowthru arrives, keep unused stocks inside storeroom...

Get the idea?

Talked to the new girl at work. She's really nice. Oh, did I forget to say that she's pretty good looking too? The "other one" saw me talking with her and got jealous. She said that I was "interviewing" the new girl.

Whatever...

I don't like what I've been seeing at work this week. But for now I'm just gonna keep quiet about it. No use in wasting my energy on people who just don't care.

I'll just ignore them & walk away...