Episode 28: What Is This Feeling Taking Over Me?

I need to get out of there now!

I am generally quiet and have control over my emotions.
It is difficult to predict what will upset me, so when I do lose my cool, people don't know how to react.
Anyone trying to pacify me will be the first one to get a verbal bashing.
I generally get upset when people accuse me of doing something wrong.
I hate being reminded about mistakes I've made in the past.
I have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

Recently I've been having this feelings of being used and manipulated, and made a sucker of.
I've tried to ignore this fact for so long even though it is so clear for me to see.
There are so many incidents that I can think of.

Don't these people realize what they're doing to me?
No more talking!
My actions will speak louder than words...

I realize that my magnetism attracts negative as well as positive influences of the people around me.
I know what I have to do.
I need to choose my friends, not let them choose me.

I am feeling depressed with my life.
Disgusted and dissatisfied.
My friends around me are little comfort.
I'm starting to feel that my life lacks meaning.
I need to take control of my life.
Realize whats really important to me.
Leave out all the rest.
Hopefully, I will come out of this rut a better man, a better friend & a better human being.

If you didn't know, Now you know!