Episode 93: Happy New Year!

2009 has been a rollercoaster of emotions with so many new memories, good and bad ones. It has been a year full of tears, smiles and lots of laughter, but most importantly, I've learnt more about myself and the people around me. So, now its time to make some changes, start over again and hope that 2010 will be a better year.

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Happy new year to everyone!

Episode 92: Girls these days...

We live in a generation where if you find out that a guy is interested in you then you become interested. You talk and enjoy it, and after the first kiss, you think you're in love. He pressures you to show him your love in the physical form and you agree because, obviously, that's what people in love do. Then he leaves you, giving you the perfect chance to draw the attention to yourself by crying to all those closest to you that you were in love and he broke your heart. You don't realize that everyone around you knows that you weren't in love. You were infatuated. Convincing yourself you were in love just makes everyone think less of you, and it's almost as if you're the girl who cried love. Eventually, Love's really gonna hit you. What are you going to do when no one takes you seriously?

I've heard it all before... Seen it all before.... How long will it take for you to open up your eyes and see what's really happening...

*sighs and shakes head*

Episode 91: Love.

I know all of those butterflies I feel inside. The smile that just happens to appear on my face, when I'm thinking about her. The way that every single song seems to remind me of her. And how she is always on my mind. It’s the feeling I get when I receive a text from her. The way I can never seem to explain how I feel. Staying up late just waiting, hoping that she just might text me. It’s the way I replay every second spent with her. The way she can make me smile for no reason at all. That moment when our eyes meet and I can’t remember, what I was going to say. It’s when I realize that I’ve never felt this way before.

Its when I’m in love.


If only she felt the same way about me too...
But wait, we're "just friends"...
That phrase kills me inside everytime...

Episode 90: Its Complicated.

Just when I thought it couldn't get any more worse, it did...

Sh!t...

A girl from my past decided to come back again into my life. Are we destined to meet up again like this? This is so complicating... Here I am trying to move on and this happens...

Ever since she came back, I've been avoiding and ignoring her as much as I can. Its not my style, but I think its the right thing to do. I don't my old feelings for her to come back again.

That's just not gonna happen...

Episode 89: Don't Assume, Confirm First

Its been kinda weird working at the new store. New place, new surroundings and new people. I'm getting used to it. I'm starting to miss a few people whom I've always worked with from before. But change is good right?

I met my secondary school friend at work a few days ago. Its been quite a while since I last saw him. We shared a couple of old stories before he had to return to work. I'm very happy for him. But also a little jealous of him at the same time. He's found the right girl for himself and just recently got married. What about me? Sigh...

Do I look like a Filipino to you? No right? Well the guy from the store next door thought I was! What next?

Nowadays, I find myself surrounded by aunties. Why can't I work somewhere where all the pretty girls are? Oh man.... Give me a break! One of them told me I looked younger than Faris. She said my face was more baby face...

Baby face??

That's a new one for me...

Episode 88: Crossroads

Hello again... Did you miss me? Finally, I get to update this thing! Its been so busy the last month or so for me. I don't have time to do anything else. So I just want to say that this blog is not DEAD! Lots of things in my mind right now, where should I start?

Sitex is finally over! I was so relieved... It was almost smooth sailing except fr a few hiccups here and there. Worst thing was, I didn't get to buy anything because I had to work the whole 4 days... DAMN YOU WORK!!!! Sigh... Looks like that printer would have to wait a little longer...

Ever since talk started about the store being taken over, everyone's been wondering where they'll end up. I'm no different. There's talk of me going to this store or this store over there... But, I'm not sure if I want to anywhere right now, I want to do something else. Really.

Note to myself. Please stop flirting with the girls. Or are they the ones flirting with me? Anyways, it has to stop. I don't want to be the topic for gossip again.

The person that I've been wanting to see for a while now finally came yesterday but I totally missed her! Or maybe she missed me? I was surprised when I heard from the guys that she was there. She didn't even say hi to me... I didn't even get to meet her! Oh well... Maybe next time I'll be more lucky.

Maybe...

Got home with a very bad stomachache after eating out with the guys last night.

Nasty!