Episode 67: Something Random

Sorry for not updating... You know its hard for me to post anything without someone taking it too personal and stuff... But, who cares about them right? They're just insecure about themselves. Anyway, something for you to read about. Comment if you want to. Enjoy!

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Trying hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day, but try to hide it in every possible way. She's only a friend, and nothing else-- That's the lie you keeping telling yourself. You keep on saying she's just a buddy, but deep inside, you're falling in love. You get so giddy when you meet her eyes, but keep reminding yourself it isn't right. A simple glance turns into a stare, but you pretend that you don't care. It's "not right" for you two to be. Is that why you hide it so no one can see? But how long will you pretend? Keep lying that she's just a friend? Perhaps your feelings you can never show. Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know. Your friendship can't be risked over this, so being her guy is an impossible wish...

Episode 66: For you.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend being angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Ju -Thanks for the insults... I always knew you were that type of person.-

Episode 65: What happened?

Story removed for personal reasons.

Episode 64: I'm a what?

Yesterday was the boss's last day at work and for some strange reason he decided to hang out with me at the store. That was surprising to say the least because NOBODY hangs out with me. Today must be my lucky day... I've got company!

Then, he started a conversation. He said I have a new friend in the new girl Rosni. Okay... Then he starts bringing up how I'm close to Hidayah and Diana too. Okay, I don't like where this is going. So I told him that all these girls are either married or seeing somebody. Sure I can be seen with them but that's about it. I'm not romantically interested with any of them! I'm sure they regard me as just a friend from work that's all.

All I did was mentored them and offered them friendship. You know, its hard when you're new and everybody expects you to know everything. And when everybody ignores you and leaves you on your own, I'm the one who comes around to check if you're okay.

I find it very sad what people think of me nowadays.

Episode 63: Old friends come to visit.

This afternoon, Fadhil dropped by the store. Its been a while since I last saw him. But, I couldn't talk to him that much that much, I had to prepare the store for stock taking tomorrow. Then in the evening, Helmi too dropped by. He said he was bored at home. After my shift was over, I hanged out with him for a while before going back home.

Episode 62: "Whatever" Saturday.

What a difference a day makes... One day I was having fun & laughing then the next day I was working with someone who bored the hell out of me...

Aisha told me her story about how she really got sick last Wednesday. She tried telling the A.M. but got she got labelled as a liar instead. Hahaa... Then when the A.M. tried to apologise to her, Aisha told her she got scolded by her own doctor because of her. The A.M.'s reply;

"Whatever."

So finally, Diana decided to come to work today. Let me say that I find the whole situation absolutely ridiculous. Its really hard to contact her. If you call her, she won't pick up. If you text her, she won't reply. And when she does reply, it'll be too late. Then I got a text from the boss. He texted me"Diana for some reason only responds to u." Yeah right... What does he mean by that?

If you're having problems, go talk to somebody. Don't try to be a hero and keep it to yourself. You can't handle everything yourself. And one more thing, don't bring your problems to work. Work can be boring we depend on each other to make it fun. But if you keep to yourself, then might as well you work alone right?

I still question myself why girls go for the so called "bad boys" who don't care about them. These guys use these girls just to show off to their friends. Ever heard of the term "trophy girlfriend"? How dumb can you be? You're just for show only...

Girls sometimes feel they have right to try to change their boyfriend into their dream guy. News flash ladies, it doesn't work all the time! A guy is only willing to change his ways if he really loves you and not because you want him to. So, don't try to force it.

Some one's "boyfriend" gave me his name card tonight as if I asked for it. I took the name card, tore into a million pieces and threw it away.

Bitch...

Take care.

Episode 61: Working with the new girl.

Today, I finally got the chance to work with Farhanah. I never got to work with her before. The boss told me to teach her some of "the basics of cashiering". She was unsure at first but I think got the hang of it as time passed. I think she can make it. A bit slow, but at least she put some effort into it. Work aside, she was fun to work with. I think we got along well together. I don't mind working with her again...

I'm relieved to find out today that last night's cash shortage has been found. Lucky I tell you... I wasn't looking forward paying!

Second day back on swing shift for me didn't go as planned. Too many customers, so many things to do! Hopefully, things will get better...

:-)

Episode 60: Weird Day...

Today was one of those days where I wasn't my usual self. My body was there but my mind was some place else! Snap out of it Ju!!!

Today, I met Aisha for the first time in a long time at work. Once she saw me enter, the first thing she said to me was she wanted to go back. Whats up with that??

I just found out today that Cik Asmah's mother in law had just passed away recently and that's why she's taking the whole week off. She did told me about her so I'm saddened with her loss. I wonder what my other friend's reason to take a week off from work too this week...

Its official, my work schedule this week stinks! But as usual, I can't do anything about it... Not gonna complain though, I'll just quietly do my thing for now. I feel my time is coming..

My first day back doing the swing shift ended up with cash shortage! What the fish!! Honestly, I didn't know what happened... Hopefully, it was all a mistake.

Why would any girl try and "manja-manja" with me? Anyone knows? What are they trying to do? Sure, its fun but after a while, I find it a bit irritating...

Finally, to whomever it may concern, I know you're not a b****. I didn't say you were one. If I was gonna call you that, I'll do it to your face where I know it hurts.

Take care...

8-)