Ju Recommends...

Have you listened to "Di Antara Kalian" by D'MASIV? A great song to listen to but its quite a sad actually. This song has very meaningful lyrics. I'm hooked on this song right now.

Ku akui ku sangat menginginkan mu
Tapi kini ku sedar ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
Ku cintaimu tak bererti bahawa ku harus memilikimu selamanya

Its so touching... I think I'm getting soft... So take a minute to listen to it! I recommend it.

Episode 40: Another disagreement?

It was just too good to be true. Yesterday was so good for me but today was the complete opposite. You just had to do it. You just had to spoil my mood again. For what? Why do you do this to me? It's not the first time it happened but everytime I would forgive you.

But not today.

Today I just had to do something. I had to say something. And I did. But trust me, what I said to you, that was just half of it.. I'm glad I stopped there cause if I didn't, I would've said something that I would regret. I'm sure you had your reasons for doing what you did and to be fair, you did apologised to me.

But that's just not good enough. I've heard it all before. Keep your promises to yourself cause I know you won't be able to keep them.

I keep having this feeling I'm just being used by you and frankly, I don't like it! You can do it to your other guy friends but not to me. Honestly, you treat me like crap... And you know what the worst part is?

Despite what has happened between us, I still regard you so highly as a friend!

And now, we're not talking to each other.

Again.

Episode 39: Feeling confused

Someone got me feeling so confused today...

I should have just kept quiet and avoided this person!

People who send mixed messages, play head games and just aren't clear about who they are in general have nothing of any real value to add to my life. Just like a bad cold, you will bring me nothing but sleepless nights and an overwhelming fatigue. Right now, I'm going to stick to the people that I know that I can always count on.

And I don't mean you!

Episode 38: The question on everyone's minds.

I was asked this question today.

"When are you getting married?"

Wow... What kind of question is that? I couldn't believe who was the one asking me the question even more! Anyway, my answer to that question is easy.

"I don't know when and I don't know where, but I'll know when I meet that girl."

But if it's not meant to be, then its okay as well. I won't force someone to love me, that's just not right. Who knows? Maybe there is someone who really likes me but I'm just not noticing it. Or maybe it's someone whom I don't like and don't really get along too well with?

Maybe... Just maybe...

Episode 87: Cool Video

Episode 86: Juraimi's Rainbow

So, after days and days of heavy rain, the outcome was a very beautiful rainbow! It wasn't the perfect rainbow but at least it was still nice to look at. This was taken a few days ago. The sky was so red at the time. I'm gonna call it "Juraimi's Rainbow".

Now, that's cool...

Episode 85: The Solution

If you've read my blog, you would know that I've been having some problems with a certain someone. After thinking things through, I've come with a solution to this problem of mine. Firstly, I'm not going to ignore her completely because that's just heartless and that's not my style. But, I'm not going to talk that much to her because she is super sensitive and super emotional. I find that its very troublesome to "pujuk" her every time I say something she doesn't like. And since her solution to all her problems is either to run away from it or avoiding the person completely, I won't bother myself to find out whats wrong with her.

Keep playing your games, I'm not interested. Its not my first time, and the one who gets hurt in the end will be you and not me. My life will still go on. You're not the only friend I have...

Episode 84: The Personality Test

I decided to take a break from the drama at work and took a personality test that Janna recomended.. Here are my results:

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

What do you think? Do you agree? I think its quite accurate if you ask me. Scary!

Anyone can
Make you smile,

Many people can
Make you cry,

But it takes someone
Really special
To make you smile
With tears in your eyes...

Random Thoughts

"One day, you'll look back and think...

Damn!

That boy really did love me..."

Random Thoughts...

"Only as high as I reach, can I grow.
Only as far as I seek, can I go.
Only as deep as I look, can I see.
Only as much as I dream, can I be."

Episode 83: I give up!

You know, I thought it was all okay when she started talking to me again. The smile was there and we were laughing together. It looked like everything was back to normal. But then, she suddenly just took her bag and just left without saying a word!

What just happened?

That's all I can take from her.. I've tried to be the better man and be understanding but obviously that's still not enough. She wants something from me but she's just not telling. Its so frustrating with her!

Stop making this all about you!

Episode 82: Still the same...

Well, at least today Diana's starting to talk to me again. Not that much, but hey its a start right? Gosh... It feels so awkward when we're near each other. Its like we're waiting for each other to say something... What should I do?

"Every night I talk to the stars pretending that its you,

It acts just like you,

Far away and never replies to my questions..."

Episode 81: She was angry, I didn't know why.

Dianah was angry with me about something. I've seen that look on her face before.. She came to work in a very bad mood yesterday. Looks like someones trying to get my attention..

This couldn't be about me not joining her and Faris to go to the IT Fair together cause I've already told Faris I couldn't make it. What was this all about then?

Surprisingly, I got a text message from her. She said a lot of things in that message. Some of which made me very angry. I knew I had to make some calls.

I called Faris up to get some answers but I ended up with nothing. Then Kala came up to me and told me something interesting.. After thinking things through, I replied her text message from earlier on.

What happens next is very unclear but I hope it settles soon...

To be continued...

Episode 80: Who's going? No thanks, maybe next time...

I really really wanted to go to the IT fair at Suntec City. And it seemed perfect timing when Faris, someone I've haven't seen in a while invited me. But after finding out who will be going, I decided to pass it up. I just felt that I won't be enjoying myself if I went. It doesn't matter anyway cause it looks like they had fun without me.

Now, I'm getting messages asking me whether I'm okay. Huh? Yeah, I'm okay. Every thing's fine. Weird... Just get straight to the point...

A big thanks to the people who f***ed up at work yesterday. You know, I don't understand these people sometimes. They know that they've got work to do but yet they they take their own sweet time on doing it. Why? They already start work late and they still want to stand around and talk. That's just inconsiderate! I was there from morning till late at night...

I was so tired but nobody cares about that right?

More Than That

I can see that you've been crying
You can't hide it with a lie
What's the use in you denying
That what you have is wrong

I heard him promise you forever
But forevers come and gone
Baby he would say whatever
It takes to keep you blind
To the truth between the lines

Oh I will love you more than that
I won't say those words, then take them back
Don't give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you more than that

Baby you deserve much better
What's the use in holding on
Don't you see it's now or never
Coz I just can't be friends
Baby knowing in the end

That I will love you more than that
I won't say those words, then take them back
Don't give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say

[bridge]

There's not a day that passes by
I don't wonder why we haven't tried
It's not too late to change your mind
So take my hand, don't say goodbye

I will love you more than that
I won't say those words, then take them back

Oh I will love you more than that
I won't say those words, then take them back
Don't give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you, oh

I will love you more than that
I won't say those words, then take them back
Don't give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you more than

Pic of the week

Hello Kitty! I choose you! I've got to catch them all!

Random Thoughts

If you are asking
if I ever need you...
The answer is forever.

If you're asking if
I'll ever leave you...
the answer is never.

If you're asking me what
I value...
The answer is you.

If you're asking if
I've ever loved you...
The answer is I do.

Episode 79: Eating with the A.M.

This past 3 days have been killer man!
My whole body is aching... I cannot take it anymore!

Help me!!!

I just cut my finger again!

Because someone "mengumpat" about me...
And now it hurts so bad...
Ouch!

Somebody just got a new phone!
Again...
Looks very expensive...
But she said she got it for free from "someone"...

I'm so jealous!

But...

Can you buy someone's love or friendship?
If the answer is yes, then what you have is not true.

Just now I had dinner with the Area manager.
It was so awkward for me.
Luckily, Dianah was there.
She was the one who did all the talking...
I just couldn't be bothered!
Note to myself: Lets NOT do that again!

Random Thoughts

I won't run away from you..

I'll walk slowly..

And it kills me that you don't care about me enough to stop me.