Personal Stuff

I'm gonna try to be as honest as I can about this because this is something I hold close to my heart. Not joking around, this is serious.

For you, what does it mean to be a friend? I used to think that everyone had the same answer as mine when it comes to this question. But I was wrong. It seems that your answer is different than mine. I realised this when I relied on you to do something for me and you let me down....again. This isn't the first time you did that to me but for every time it happened I've just kept quiet and moved on. I didn't feel that I needed to make it an issue until now...

I feel we need to have a talk about this and we need to have it soon. It will be very honest and it won't be that pleasant but I believe this is the only way to get us back on track. I have expectations and you're not fulfilling them.

As a friend, I think I should let you know about it....

Word of the day!

Alright boys and girls, today's word of the day is "Love Bite".



love bite

noun
a temporary red mark on a person's skin resulting from kissing or sucking by their lover


Am I the only one here who finds that MRT guy irritating. Here I am trying to get some work done when this joker comes along and starts talking about love bites to the girls. Shit man! You can't come up with anything better to talk about? This guy is so lame. I got nothing against him but sometimes he can be such an **** sometimes. I wonder why the girls can stand for his crap. So embarassing!



MRT guy = WHATEVER!

Episode 15: Awkward Situations

It was kind of awkward I must say. Even though the 3 of us knew each other for quite a while now, neither of us just could start a decent conversation. I hope I wasn't interrupting anything important and if I was, I apologize. But from the silence I experienced, I guess Farris and Janna still have problems they need to sort out.

I sincerely hope everything works out well for the both of them.

And for whatever reason, Aisha got angry with me.

Whats her problem?

I tried asking nicely but she just blew me off. Fine, be that way! I don't care. This what I get for trying to be nice to people who don't deserve it. And she's not the only one too, there's more!

Hopefully, tomorrow will be better...

WhatEver.

Jiwangz Ngan Joe

"Maafkan aku kerna menyintamu
Maaf jika ku tak padan denganmu
Tapi ku berjanji kau juita hati
Akan ku jaga hingga akhir nanti
Maafkan aku terus memujamu
Maaf aku yang terlanjur merindu
Didalam hujan renyai
Aku mengintai langit
Mengharap engkau akan setuju
Menyintai aku"

Fuuyoh.... Jiwang sangat! "Feeling" sekejap... Kalau pandai, teka lah lirik ini dipetik dari lagu apa...

Episode 14: The Last Argument?

A big argument happened this afternoon between Herty & Fadhil. And unfortunately, I was caught in the middle of it! Sheesh! Why must this things happen to me?! It all started with one question... Vulgarities were exchanged and I swear fists were about to fly!

Elsewhere, Faris & Helmi were busy cleaning up rat pooh at the other store. I think I saw Faris vomit just now. Ewwwww!

More random thoughts

I don't know why but these random thoughts keep popping up inside my head. Maybe they mean something?

I hate working the morning shift. I can't wake up early. And when I do wake up, I close my eyes go back to sleep again. Shit....

I am not any ones doormat! I will not be stepped on by these idiots who care only about themselves. You have been warned!

I ignore people when I get angry. And I'll do it for as long as it takes. I think this is much better than getting involved in a shouting match.

I don't know why I don't talk to you nowadays. And when we do talk, I just don't seem interested in listening to what you have to say. It just seems so awkward. Is there something wrong?

Everybody want to be friends with the pretty girl. She just loves the attention. But in reality, shes just a confused girl who is very insecure about herself. The boy who everyone makes fun of is actually quite fun to be around with once you get to know him.

I absolutely hate proud people. Show me one and I'll teach them a thing or two about humility.


End

Random Thoughts

• On Life

What can I say? I'm satisfied at the moment but at the same time I still want to achieve much more. I feel like something or someone is holding me back. I think I still have a lot to offer so I don't think I'm done yet.

• On Work

Its like riding a bicycle with no wheels. Honestly, I feel like I'm getting nowhere with this job. I'm trying my best to motivate myself buts it no use. Same old problems again but with different people involved. Seen and heard it all before, so this time I won't even bother to get involve this time around. I've given up already...

• On Love

Am I the problem? Maybe I'm too picky. I don't know. What do you think? Right now I'm still enjoying being single but sometimes I do wonder if "Ayu" or "Chantek" will show up and take my heart away... So far its been "Whatever!?" only... Oh well, I guess this sort of things can't be rushed.

• On Girls

Very complicated people! They say "Yes" when they meant to say "No". Still trying to figure them out. But still, I can't live without them. They complete me.

• On Friends

Friends come and go for me. And in some cases, they re-appear again! This current group is quite enjoyable to be around with. I'm very close with most of them but I feel like I'm not as close with certain people in the group. But that's OK. My best friend? Its the person whose always beside me, the person who helps me, the person who I can share a joke with and the person who comes up to me and asks me if I'm OK and really means it.

END

Dear Joe,
I have a problem & I hope you can help. I really don't what to do. Me & my friend were supposed to be working together but often I found myself working alone & wondering where my friend is. It was very busy and there was a large crowd. When my friend did come back, my friend acted as if nothing was wrong. I feel very annoyed right now. What should I do?

Annoyed Friend

Hmm, ever found yourself in this situation before? What would you do? Post your answers in the comments page.

For You,

I just want to take this time to say thank you to those who took the time to care during my time of uncertainty.

Your kind words of support & encouragement has really moved me emotionally.

I am truly grateful to have a friend like you.

So once again, from the bottom of my heart, I say thank you.

Juraimi

Did I deserve this?!

Is it my fault?!

So many questions running through my head right now... Just can't stop thinking about it!! Today started normal enough but how did it end up like this?! I can't explain this... Totally lost...

My world began to crumble as soon as I left work. Got a call from my mum. She told me my dad was involved in an accident. It came as a complete shock to me.

Just came back from the hospital just now. It was a heart breaking experience for me. The man was lying on the bed and he couldn't barely move. His face was all bruised and bloody all over. I can't believe that that was my father I was looking at...

Words can't describe how I feel right now. Everything else takes a back seat from now on until I see my father walking & healthy again...

God, give me the strength to get through this please... I don't think I'm strong enough...

Get well soon.

Episode 13: For better or worse

Things have been different since my last post. Don't know what it all means because its still too early to say if this situation is gonna get better or gonna get even worse.

Today, I tried to listen to a friend when they asked for a moment of my time. Sometimes I wish this person would say more clearly about what they need from me, because I definitely want to hear what this person wants to say. I think it's important for us to be honest with each other. You can't get what you want unless you are willing to ask for it.

I feel that my relationship with a certain "friend" of mine is going through too much turmoil right now to survive. I think something is going on with them and they're not ready to tell me what it is. I must admit that although it dosen't feel too good to know that they are keeping things from me, I realize that they can't share their feelings until they are ready to. I guess I'll let them deal with it first, and check up on them later.

This week Zaky dropped by the store. Glad to see him again because Its been awhile since I last saw him. Even though he didn't have to, he helped me out alot by clearing some stocks which came that day. Big "Thank You!" for your help. Promise I'll repay your good deed somehow...

I went to Banquet with Helmi earlier this week for lunch. I ordered fish & chips while he ordered black pepper beef I think. Mine turned out perfect but unfortunately for him, his one was abit overcooked. Bummer...

Finally decided to get my hair cut. Now its definitely shorter. Hopefully, my luck will get better from now on. Oh well...

The 50th Post!

This is the last time I'm gonna bitch about this. I've had enough! So tired of encountering the same problems over and over again. I can't even enjoy my off day without someone from work calling my hand phone. Shit... Its ringing again?! Screw the sicko calling me... not today, not ever again.

Being a nice guy really just doesn't work anymore nowadays. At least for me. I've always felt that I've did the right thing. Teach the new guy, help others out whenever I can, cover for people who couldn't come to work and staying behind to do that extra work. But I can't help but feel unappreciated sometimes. I try to not let it bother me but it has happened way too often for my liking. And yes, I still remember every time it happened. I've always forgiven those involved but I've never forgotten what they did.

People say revenge is like a poison, it overwhelms you & makes you do things you don't want. Let me say honestly, revenge has never crossed my mind. Sometimes, I wonder why these people play me out for a fool. This are the same people whom I consider my "friends".

I just hope they realise that I was the guy who was there to help them out when nobody give a damn. I was the one who took time to get to know them when others found them irritating & a bloody pain in the ass. I was the one they called to cover your ass when you got sick or something else. Yes it was ME.

I think I got stop this now. Too much negative things on my mind right now... Let me say that I'm sorry if I've ever offended anyone. I know I'm wrong too. Hopefully, my next few posts will be happy ones...